Maligayang Pasko at Manigong Bagong Taon sa inyong lahat!

Salamat sa isang mabungang taong nakaraan!

Sama-sama nating salubungin ang 2009 na puno ng pag-asa!

 

^{there is a poem here somewhere}

^{I said}

^{as I rummaged through my life,}

^{as well as a painting of an idea that melted}

^{and a frozen moment,}

^{there is much that is remembered}

^{but there are more that are forgotten}

^{or lost in deliberate motions}

^{or doomed to cathartic expulsions}

^{willfully destroyed by truths}

^{which, though relative,}

^{are still true.}

^{Hail to the poet!}

^{Hail to the artist!}

^{Hail to the mind that declares}

^{what to discard}

^{and what to retain.}

^{The poem is more somewhere than here.}

^{The paint is dry, the dust thick.}

^{What is forgotten is best remembered,}

^{when forgotten beyond remembering.}

Hey, Universe, I'm talking to you!
Yes, you, Infinity! Stardust and Blackhole
Converge and begin,
Come to me and grant my biggest whim.

the depth and darkness
the height and the light
the then, the now and the never.

I am a malcontent, but
I am tired.

I have wandered,
travelled long distances
in one spot

and got lost, was lost
and lost

                  without a fight.

for I refused to fight.

I will not argue with life
for there is 
                   none but
that which is forever there:

the inevitable.

Taking a break from all that thinking...


read many other books that aren't on the list...hmm..gives me a goal of some sort...i am a reading teacher after all..
tagging seikochan, parapsionic, mahyeee,non_malarkey,  and poyayan..wala lang..

It seems that it happens annually, usually around summer vacation or towards the end of classes. I WRECKED MY CELLPHONE AGAIN. Last year, I dropped it in beach water. Two years ago, it got stolen. Three years ago, my brother left it in a tricycle when he borrowed it.

So I'll be incommunicado again until the end of June or early July because that's when I'll most likely have money to buy a new phone. If you have to tell me anything chikkatxt, IM or email me, I check all of them every night. :D

Thanks.

Assumptionista na ako as of today. Wala pang contract, though,  palabra de honor pa lang namin nung HR na sobrang bait. Unang araw ko sa May 21.Unang sweldo ko sa June 15. mataas ng 500php kesa MC. sobrang laki ng tipid sa pamasahe - 100% off - with plenty of opportunities for exercise (translation: malayo ang lalakarin ko to and fro work dahil walang sasakyan). Sana makapagtipid ako...mejo mahirap lang kasi araw-araw akong dadaan ng Landmark, Greenbelt, Glorietta, SM Makati. Pero kaya natin 'to!!!! Mabuhay si Beatrice!!!!!

bangag sobra... lol...

Rei and Ralf brought home a Belgian Malinois puppy yesterday morning. It's the K9 that you see in MRT and malls but it's only three months old. The puppy was very gentle and at first we thought it didn't know how to bark, (we've never heard an MRT dog bark before either) but later that afternoon, a sudden shriek from our gay neighbor startled it and made it bark. We weren't sure if it didn't like the gay neighbor or it understood the gay neighbor and empathized. Anyhow, our biggest problem was naming the dog. Everybody wanted to give it a name. Rei's bestfriend wanted to name it Moron, shortened to Ron, nobody agreed with him; I wanted to name it Grigio, after St. John Bosco's guardian angel dog, the girls didn't like it; I also suggested Stan, from our name, but nobody liked it either. Jamie wanted Bantay and Ma went down her memory lane and wanted to name the poor dog after her old dog Bruce or Macho, of course nobody agreed with her, we never liked those dogs when they were alive; and Ralf wanted Jack. The day ended and the dog still didn't have a name. We took it out for a walk that night and we managed to go around downtown Pasig without having to call its name. It was late when we realized that we were the ones who got "walked." The dog set the pace and we had to do all we could to keep up with it..  I will post pictures as soon as my bluetooth is working again...

I am terrified of riding motorcycles but Rei has one and he says it's very convenient. He offered to bring me to my church service on it so I  would have the chance to face my fear and get rid of it.  If  I'm still terrified,  I could simply pray for the ordeal. Sto. Tomas to Kapitolyo in under 10 minutes. Not bad, except that I squeezed my eyes shut the entire time.  My knees were shaking when I got down and my good brother didn't really help when he said, "Ang arte mo.Ihuhulog kita sa susunod e." How considerate of him.

AC demo today. wish me luck.

My computer's finally online.SmartBro...It's not the best there is but it's good enough for me. Been spending a lot more than I should but it's worth it... it's going to help me work and play really well... :P
sorry uselesspost...just want toshout to the world that I do not really live under a rock now...

Just came down from the mountains of Tanay,Rizal late last Wednesday because of MC Gurong Lingkod. Too pooped to move so I slept all day yesterday.  The experience was truly rewarding that it made me wish I had done it a long time ago with Pahinungod.

Baranggay Laiban, Tanay, Rizal won't ring a bell to anyone except to people who actually live there. It's a tiny hamlet that consists of two intersecting dirt roads lined with bamboo huts (with combination of G.I. sheet and pawid roofing) and fruit trees. There is no electricity except from 6-8pm and that is only from a generator. People are mostly farmers and kaingeros but the fields are in danger of flooding.   That's right, flooding. Our good old government is planning to continue Marcos' dam project and bury this baranggay along with may others in Quezon and Rizal in river water. People there have a hand to mouth existence and they can't do anything about it. Many of the adults do not know how to read.  There is only a multi-grade elementary school (multiple grades in a single classroom) and almost nobody goes to high school because the town where the high school is located is a four hour walk  away.  The teachers go there only three days a week.  When somebody gets sick they try to do what they can with herbal medicine. If it's too much, they carry the sick person on a hammock across the mountains.  There isn't a priest there and many children are not baptized. Couples rarely get married in church but sometimes marry in the town hall. I said sometimes because it is such a bother to walk all the way to the town when all they wanted was to have children. And children they do have. Plenty of them. Families consist of a minimum of five children and a maximum of 12.

Stayed there for only three days teaching little kids but I felt it wasn't enough. How do I teach reading for only three days?

Made me realize how trivial and how valuable things are down here in the city. There are so many things that we take for granted. Dear God, there has to be a better way.

Sensha na pong muli sa lahat at nawasak ko ang cellphone ko dahil sa aking katangahan kaya mejo incommunicado ako ngayon.

Masaya sana dahil first time kong makakita ng white sand na beach...(hindi siya talaga white...parang ecru...basta hindi gray) at dahil natuwa ako sa nakita ko naglaro ako ng buhangin. Gagawa sana ako ng sandcastle kaso hindi siya talaga mabuo...nakalimutan ko na nasa bulsa ko pala ung cellphone ko...kasi nag-pipicture din ako...

so ayun nga. nabasa siya ng tubig dagat. mas matindi daw itong mang-corrode kasa ordinaryong tubig...true enough...nang subukan kong sindihan...it sputtered and died...kawawang phone...kawawang amo.

wala akong cellphone ngayon... hay buhay...kung kailan sobrang kailangan ko siya. kainis... masama pa nito...i should have known better... naiinis ako talaga pag nabobobohan ako sa sarili ko.

bahala na...

As usual, this is a very late post. 

Met some of my high school mates last Friday, 4/20/07. After ten long years. Strange. Surreal. I didn't have any contact with them right after graduation. Dived right into college life (nobody came with me to the university I went to) and lost contact. Thanks to the ubiquitous friendster, I found them and they found me. We set up a date (on a night that I was next to penniless,of all nights!) and went out. Some of us were already married and have an average of 2 children. Most of us are in relationships and the most painful -- and at the same time the funniest -- truth is that I am the only one who is still NBSB. Many have changed physically but almost nobody changed mentally. We're the same old crazy bunch who plagued the lives out of our dear teachers and our poor headmaster. The running joke that night was I was going to send all of them back to the principal's office the way I used to. Was I that bad? I never thought I was that much of a rat. Karma really deals a quick and effective blow. Having the type of students that I had just serves me right.   

Strangely, but it was to be expected anyway, many of us had worked abroad or are actually abroad, which is why they can't be with us at the party.

I need to get a move on. My overall status isn't making a good impression on anybody. (Trans. I am a loser)

Ah well... times like these make me wish that the weiss kreutz were real. singson's shenanigans yesterday were absolutely stupid. One can really smell his fishy face all over the TV. What kind of fools does he think Filipino voters are? Well,maybe we are fools...This publicity ploy certainly makes the cut for the action-star-enamoured man-on-the-street. singson's tiger will have the time of its life when its master is elected senator. All those people that he'll have killed would definitely make a feast for it. Now if that 5 kilos of chicken used to feed that tiger for every meal that it needs is used to feed the poor people of some random squatter area,then it would have been more useful. It's not the tiger's fault, though. God must have some weird plans for this country, or we must be mighty stubborn.

That apologetic political ad also gets my goat...why the hell are people still cashing in on the deposed president's unfortunate stupidity? I'm seeing slash marks all over my ballot.  There has to be a better way.

On a lighter note...
This meme got me reminiscin'

I want to buy a digicam..... I think i'm really settling for that Aiptek thing....

For somebody who grew up on EDSA as a commuter and an observer, yesterday was really dumb. My life is counted in EDSA milestones. I was there at EDSA One, albeit a frightened preschooler, but I was there, I even had a picture near Gringo and Enrile. 'Rents both worked in Makati while living in Pasig, Gramps lived in QC. Visiting the office and the old house involved commuting to and fro EDSA. In college, 'rents made me go home everyday from UPD to Pasig. I saw how MRT was built and I rode the first train with Erap. I saw the changes in the Makati and Ortigas skyline. I saw how EDSA Central became mall-ish whereas before it was just a tiangge-an. I saw the development of Cubao, of the North Triangle, of Taft, Pasay and Caloocan. I was there.

But I am very much willing to forget EDSA One. The picture that I had has long been destroyed. No negatives. It was on Polaroid.

EDSA One was just a big fluke.
A stageplay for people who love drama.

It doesn't mean anything anymore.

Ditse got a box of six long stems yesterday through LBC. Asensado na talaga si FafaJer... *turns green with envy*...not. Got chocolates from my studes anyway.

Kiddie fair sa MC at the moment...missing SMC kiddie fair...demmed storm that made me miss it.

Haven't gone to the UPFair yet this year. I'm actually dreading to go. Last year's fair was too painful.

I really have to learn to keep my promises.

Nothing happened in what seemed to be another one of those days that I don't particularly look forward to. In fact the very reason why it was happy is because nothing happened, I just got a year and 9 months older. There was a sense of achievement,though. I was able to clean the eternally messy storage room and throw out useless sheets of paper and whatnot that I've been holding onto for years, being the packrat that I am. I know I'm bound to have some use for them later on, but it was great seeing the tabletop and the floor again.

I just realized...I'll be turning 30 in just four years. Wow. I'm still pretty useless as I am right now...

WAaaah!!!!

I've always thought that there were two of me, turns out there are three. Me and my two other twin personalities.
( Nobody knows who I really am...not even myself )

kids have been pestering me about my birthday since i actually told them that all i remember is I was born on a February...they won't believe that I was a leap year kid. Anyhow...i think they'll be making me celebrate my birthday the entire February,as they have already started greeting me everyday...>_< I do hope they'll tire of it soon... kids these days.... >_<

speaking of birthdays...ma gave me and ditse an early birthday gift...she had our hair fixed...i won't ever go through the same process again...my head felt like somebody doused me with a tankful of gasoline and lit up 20 cigars and poked my head with each, one by one, after which they put my head in an oven...i felt like they were going to cut off my head and serve it with garnishings on top...she even attempted to have our eyebrows plucked...glad she changed her mind...prettification hurts too much... i just wish the shampoo commercials were really true so nobody has to endure that kind of pain... T.T

argued with two koreans in defense of a jeepney driver... their stupid van was parked under a tree in an island in katipunan. the jeepney rolled over a large bit of rock which flew and hit the van, making a 3cm scratch under the left door and about six inches(rough diameter) of dust scattered on the left side of the van... the jeepney driver can't get his meaning across and was as meek as could be while the koreans and their (Filipino) driver were bullying him. The passengers in the jeep were getting restless and are beginning to ask the manong to give their fare back. It was an accident and if anything it was the van who is at fault because it was parked illegally. Anyhow, a sort of hero complex was triggered and i did what any ESL-capable Filipino should do...now I wish my korean is more than just baegupa and anyeonghaseyeo... >.<

PAASCU visit tomorrow!!! wala lang...i think i'm gonna be sick....

Got a 500php worth of NBS Gift Cheque as exchange gift last Christmas. It was really neat considering that I just gave an iron to the gift stack. Anyhow, it says I could still use it until November of this year so I hid it away meaning to wait for the Cut Price Book Sale they always have at around October I think. Of course, hiding it away also means most likely losing it (I remember the Hidden Ninja appellation *shudder*). I found it just yesterday tucked inside a calligraphy book in my desk at the faculty room. So I decided to spend it right away before I lose it again. Right after the "foot-school" business. I went straight to NBS and got myself swamped. I didn't know what I wanted to buy...so at random without reading or listening to any previous reviews (which I don't normally do)I bought volume 4 of
wala na kasi nung vol.1-3
I didn't scan or read I just liked the drawing. Where did it get me? Nowhere actually. The drawings were nice, the story good, that is as far as I can tell from just one volume. It's not as perverted as most but it's not as clean either.
Now, I need to scrounge up enough to buy the rest of it....
But it costs only 395 so that means I still have 105php left.
bought book ends for 83php leaving me 22php
got 4 assorted cartolina for 5.50, which I do not really need because the school provides everything.

The receipt didn't print. The cashier lady wasn't even apolegetic. She actually bullied me into saying that I don't need a receipt.

I let myself get bullied.

All in all, future GCs, though pretty much of a bother, are still very much welcome.

Spent the past two Saturdays hogging the TV. Nobody complained, though, which is very, very good.

Medyo passe na nga lang din yung mga pinanood ko dahil na rin sa tagal ng panahon na wala na kaming quality bonding time ng favorite appliance ko sa buong bahay, na sinamahan na ng 2nd favorite na DVD player. Naging ritwal na rin ang pagpunta ko kay Ate Eva (yung tindera ng DVD sa MRT Shaw) every Saturday morning para i-replenish ang aking stock.
Kina-astigan kong titles:
I Not Stupid Too P.T.C movie. Tungkol sa mga problemadong bata, gagong teacher at mas gagong magulang. Intsik. Pinakanakakatawang eksena: nung akala ng bunso na nakabuntis siya.
Speaking of P.T.C, kakatapos lang ng PTC dito ngayon, at isang random quote galing dun.
Kung buhay lang si Jose Rizal siya na ang kinuha kong tutor ng anak ko. ~random parent to teacher during PTC

Bleach - shempre. nasa episode 91 na'ko. sana meron pa 'kong makitang magandang anime kina ate Eva....

Princess Hours - yes. jologs din ako. Ngayon san na ba ako makakakita ng My Sassy Girl...